September 10, 2008
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Take a Deep Breath and Breathe
That is what I tell myself several times a day and things are getting better. I am now able to focus on work and in fact billed out a rather large amount yesterday. I was also offered a part time position doing some HTML programming for an internet company here in KC. I make more doing graphic work them for as a free lance artist but ya know what... I am going to take it anyhow to get me OUT OF THE HOUSE. Just 20 hours a week (or more - I can make my own schedule with this company). It is a temporary position unless I can really motivate myself and get shit done - which of course I can!
On the J front... He seems to think this new living arrangement is great. He spent the night Monday and I have to admit the chemistry and fireworks were awesome after not being with each other physically for a while. But still I cried myself to sleep holding him because I want the security of him with me every night. He started to tell me that he really misses me but I would not let him - this is his doing after all. I want him to miss me and beg to come back. Do I think that will happen? Yes, but not anytime soon. I have been wrong before...
Maddi asked J the other night "Why do you not want to stay here with my mommy anymore? You should be sleeping by her every night!" I just laughed and agreed with her.
Hope you are all doing well. Here is a pic of me and all my babies last Friday night at a football game. We had such a good time and it had been awhile since all my kids were together.
Clockwise: Ashley, Me, Sammi, CJ, Maddi.
Comments (10)
I hadn't realized that the J situation had changed! What a difficult time for you - upheaval is never easy. Hope you get LOTS of graphic work!
Boys always think things are great when they get their way.
I'm back on the boys have cooties bandwagon.
Your babies are beautiful ! Like mama.
@TheGreenPanther - I like that bandwagon!
Love the football picture & glad you've got a reasonably healthy attitude about the J thing. I agree with you on that--you don't want him to come back because you asked him to; you want him to WANT to.
great looking bunch
Great picture of you and the family
Lots of positive thoughts and understanding for you with the J situation.
Kathi
Getting out of the house is a great idea and you will do well.
It looks like you were having fun at the game.
WOW........the Bear thinks J may need a check up from the neck up ...........sounds like your one very busy lady................awesome pics...........
What a beautiful family!! Congrats on the new job. Getting out of the house is good.
Y'all look fab
I do not have cooties
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