February 12, 2008

• 2 Years... But Who's Counting?

  Today marks a mile stone in my relationship with J. Although a lot of you don't recognize dating anniversaries - I do. It is important to me. A day to reflect back over the last 2 years and to all those years before when we actually met. We are not buying each other anything - in fact we have not talked about today at all except I asked him to be home early tonight as I have something to show him. Hee hee. I did make him a couple cd's with some music I like as well as a video of some pictures and video clips from a special day in our lives. Chances are today is just another day to him and I have come to realize, and you guys helped a little, that is just the way he is, but i remembered and I have plans for him...

  Today I thought I would share with you the first time I kissed J - chances are I have posted it before but what the hell. I am feeling all romantic today!

  Saturday night Feb 12, 2006

  I was sitting in Ann’s kitchen when
  J called.  I had broke down and
  sent him a text message earlier that afternoon but not my phone number.  He called Ann’s cell phone and wanted to
  confirm he would be at her party later on that evening.  He called because of the text message I sent.
  Ann threw the phone at me and made me talk to him.  Hearing his voice after all these years… what
  can I say, it really affected me.  I felt myself transported back in time - his voice
  was like a silky caress to my senses. I felt stupid on my end of the phone
  - my hand was shaking. My heart pounded so hard and loud I just knew he could
  hear it through the phone.  I have no
  idea what we talked about.  I thought I
  might cry – stupid girl reaction.

  When he arrived I was sitting at Ann’s
  kitchen counter on a bar stool.  He
  walked towards me and seemed shy, but I doubted he really was.  I could barely speak and only answered direct
  questions.  He took my breath
  away…again.  His hair was different,
  shorter, but those blue eyes drew me in. 
  Feelings from 6 years before came rushing back.  It scared me. 
  It was almost too much.  I told my
  self I was being stupid and calmed down and enjoyed not only his company but
  those of other friends at her party.  It
  was so much fun!

  I
  watched him out of the corner of my eye as he talked to various people. 
  We were literally dancing around each other and it made me sweat from time to time.
  When he would glance sideways at me there was nothing shy in his eyes.  We
  were VERY aware of each others presence but, for me, it was enough to have him
  in the same room.  Occasionally he would wonder back over and talk to me
  and then one of us would get involved in a conversation with someone
  else.  This was all very intentional on my part.  I was afraid if he
  knew exactly now shaken up I was that he would bolt. One on one was something
  that needed to wait until I could slow my heart down. Yeah right... Like that
  ever happened!

  At around 11:00 PM J and I left
  the core of the party after he invited me to sit down.  We went into Ann’s Chinese inspired living
  room and sat on the sofa.  The walls are
  painted a rich red which made the glow from the lamp very soft.  We sat close enough to brush each other but
  not quite touching.  The air crackled
  around us both or at least I hoped it was not my imagination.  Just
  looking at him while he talked to me had me absolutely fascinated.  I felt
  my mouth dry up.  His eyes... they looked directly into mine...

  We talked about a lot of things and got
  to know each other again.  At one point
  while I was telling some story I laid my head against the back of the sofa, my
  body was turned towards his with one of my legs drawn up. My eyes were staring
  directly into his beautiful blue eyes. 
  He was sitting in a similar position. 
  He started to rub my foot and at the instant his fingers met my toes I
  was shocked all the way through my body. 
  Exactly the same feeling I had had years ago when he hugged me or
  lightly touched me innocently.  I forgot
  what I was saying. He laughed at my look of confusion.

  I rested my head against the couch and
  closed my eyes enjoying the caresses that now included my calf.

  “Don’t look at me like that.”  He seemed to say in all seriousness.

  My eyes snapped open. “My eyes were
  closed.” I looked at him in confusion.

  He grinned mischievously “Look at me
  that way again.”

  I closed my eyes and leaned my head
  back once more, ”Why?” I asked

  “Because when you look at me like that
  you can not see me moving in to kiss you.” 
  He began caressing my face.  No
  one had ever touched me with such tenderness. 
  I felt him shift his body and then I experienced the most amazing
  sensation I had ever felt.  He kissed
  me.  Softly, gently, with his hands
  lightly touching my face.  I melted.  My world got fuzzy.  He pulled back and we looked at each other.  “More” I said.  This time when our lips met I felt fire run
  through my body.  Goosebumps broke out on
  my skin.  His tongue touched mine and the
  kiss deepened.

  When we pulled away from each other I
  told him “We waited 6 years for this kiss. 
  Was it everything you expected?”

  His grin was answer enough “Please do
  not make me wait until another six years 
  for the next one.”  We both
  laughed and I knew at that moment we were connecting.

  Happy 2 year anniversary J. I hope you like my surprises later. I love you.

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