I know I am not posting as much but things are just so busy for me right now! So a quick catch up:

1. Had my first Thanksgiving with J's family. That went very well and I was even asked to make the gravy. It rocked - thank god! I was very nervous about that. We all had a great time and I felt very much a part of things. His mom and sister spent a lot of time talking to me. All you women know if the mom and sister accept ya you must rock! We can be such bitches!
2. J and I had several heart to heart discussions over the holiday and made some huge progress with our relationship. I flat out asked him why he never says "I love you." He said "What are you talking about I have said it 3 times." I guess all the times I thought he had said it he really has. He also admitted he fell in love with me completely and totally over a year ago. He brought up a certain scenario and in my memory it was one of the most romantic moments we have ever had and that was the moment for him. He still is not saying it casually and told me he wouldn't - that it had to be a meaningful moment. BUT he did say he would continue to show me how much he cares and that he plans on staying put for good - that I am the best thing that ever happened to him.
3. Our weekend rocked and was so fun and filled with love that I was amazed and even cried a couple times. Not just make you think you have died and gone to heaven love making and fucking (I'm honest people), but lots of connectivity on other levels. He opened up about lots of things. So did I.
4. Got to spend time with all my kiddos which was really great! I love it when they are all here at the same time. That is so hard to arrange once they start leaving the nest. Lots of hugs and cuddles and cooking for my babies!
5. Spent an awesome weekend with my bestest GF Friday night. We sat around talking and then decided to go our for pizza in our sweats - for two slightly (ha ha) vain people that was a trip. We had a blast. Came back to my place, crawled on my bed and watched the episode of Grey's Anatomy we had missed the night before. Then we made made passionate love and decided to leave our men and become lesbians. Oops - that part may or may not be true. Considering we both love the penis's in our lives - prolly not gonna happen.... for awhile...
6. Last night J and I cuddled and watched movies. Wore out and happy.

Have a great week everyone!

Traveling around and taking pics is what I would like to do for my next
real vacation. Somewhere with an ocean would be perfect. And cabana
boys. They would make good photo ops, no other reason .   

I just answered this Featured Question, you can answer it too!

 I was standing in line at my local Price Chopper grocery store last night and started giggling. Have you ever looked around at the items people are purchasing in the 12 items or less isle? One lady was buying flowers - lots and lots of them. Come to think of it she was probably in violation of the 12 items or less rule...hmmm....

Another lady had store made hamburger buns and gum. Not sure what she was going to put on those buns but apparently it was going to give her bad breath. The lady behind me had a big cart with only a turkey in it. I will assume she forgot her list. I mean come on - they are not THAT heavy! I had run in for ice cream and chocolate syrup to go with the brownies that had just come out of the oven. Really. Ok the chocolate syrup could have other applications as well. Where is that body art brush anyhow...

Anyhow the whole thing struck me as humorous.

What is the weirdest combination of things your have picked up recently at the grocery store?

Here is another question - totally unrelated - for you:
Is it ok to strangle your whiney, bitchy, stomping her feet 4 year old while christmas shopping? Or any kind of shopping?? I really need to know so I am prepared next time. She is still alive people with no marks around her neck... can't say the same for her butt though...

This has been a very busy week for me - lots of new training in several new high tech products. I had so much information crammed into my head it is leaking out of my ears. Time to reboot and chill for a couple days!

See ya on Monday with something interesting...

I stayed out of trouble this weekend - but only because I did not get caught...

...Now aren't you curious?

I'll give you a hint. We borrowed a full size van, for the weekend, and driving around this afternoon I decided clothing was optional. Of course I was in the back of the van. Funny how all the mirrors were suddenly on me. I actually saw J shiver from head to toe a couple times. Suddenly we were parked in a field... We had a really good time and I plan on more of the same since we now have a 2.5 hour drive home from the lake. Glad I packed what I bought at Ann's party the other night...

My job has many many facets. One of them being I am in charge and design our company web sites as well as several for friends and customers. Yesterday my web server went down. It is located in Florida with a very reputable company. I was so frustrated I up and moved every domain we own and my customers own to another company. Ye of little patience - thats me!

I AM SO HAPPY I MADE THIS MOVE.

I will be saving my company over $3600 per year. Yeah I patted myself on the back for that. BUT then the hard part - DNS changes, waiting for transfers to populate, setting up the Domains, sub domains, files, directories, sub directories... email, email forwarding, web mail... and so much more including 3 calls to tech support. Getting used to new software was easy for me, but learning where everything was took a minute. Then making sure my web sites all uploaded ok (they didn't at first) and figuring out why if they did not. The smallest little error throws a huge wrench in things and makes everything stop - dead.

My brain is fried and I am ready for some partying tonight. As I have been working on this post I think I have all my sites but 2 back up and those have to wait for info from their owners.

MizzShoez post from the other day really cracked me up and made me think of a funny situations.

What do you do on a date with a new lover and suddenly you need to poop and you are at the other persons house (or even your own)?
Do you:

1. Excuse yourself and go for it in the closest bathroom?
2. Try to find a bathroom at the opposite end of the house to discretely relieve yourself and then pray their is air freshener and candles you can light everywhere?
3. Hold it until either your date leaves or you leave to go home (if you are at their house)?
4. Make an excuse to run to the gas station for soda and use their bathroom?
5. Fake like you are feeling sick and leave ASAP?

What do you do when you feel a fart coming on in the car when you are on a date?
Do you:

1. Let little bits of it escape at a time and pray it is not stinky?
2. Let it all out and cringe when the car fills with noxious gases and then act like you just saw a dead skunk on the side of the road?
3. Ask to stop at the next gas station so you can release it in private?
4. Blush insanely and apologize when the fart you were holding can no longer be held and is released and echoes around the interior of the car?
5. Roll the window down and stick your ass out the window and let 'er rip?

Girls - During sex you let out a fart and both of you freeze for a moment (cause you know that little gust of wind blew right across his balls).
Do you:

1. Laugh hysterically?
2. Pretend it was just your sweat soaked bodies sticking together and making suction fart noises?
3. Keep going like nothing happened?
4. Get so embarrassed you cry?
5. Turn bright red and start to stop but your partner takes control and acts like nothing happened?

Think of some other scenarios - There are hundreds. Or if you are brave tell us about your own experience. I personally have lived through all of these. For the first question I would have to answer  that I have done 2-5. For the second question I will answer 3. The third question I would have to answer 1-3. The 2nd answer is not a good one because as I noted they feel the air on their balls.

Oh and All my answers apply to J and myself. We are really weird still about farts and pooping 9 months after moving in together and being together for 21 months. I never hear the man fart. Ok occasionally and we always pretend it did not happen. We are just weirdos. In the morning he uses a bathroom downstairs from our bedroom and I wait til he leaves. I find this funny.

EDIT AT BOTTOM

I told myself I would not do this, and some of you will shake your heads in disappointment, but fuck it...

Ya know... I never asked to be dragged into an issue that was non of my business but yesterday I was. Actually I was yanked into it not dragged and not by the person I care about, but by a very mean spirited individual who is just asking for trouble. I love Xanga. I love all my friends here. I even believe you have the right to post comments of any sort to whatever I post, BUT I also have the right to delete them. You may also message me anything you want, BUT I have the right to blog about it and make you look and feel like the complete immature moron you are.

Having a blog carries a certain amount of responsibility. I am certainly a wild spirited individual from time to time and even post some things that others may find offensive - I would think my online name would speak for itself. Let me know what you think - I love that. BUT I also have feelings and they can and were stomped on by the mean spirited individual I am almost referring too. It is a sure thing I do not even need to point out this person to some of you who know what is happening behind the scenes of Xanga. But lets just say the individuals online name certainly is appropriate to the personality.

Asking me to pass on your mean message to another Xangan was just... weird. I also will not accept being called names and I quote: "...you have that whole 13 year old wanna be whore look and all....i'm just saying...". And how about: "...And gosh, lose some weight before you post pics of yourself in a "sexy" costume. GOSH..."

Hmmmm.... I found that comment to be interesting and yeah it bruised my ego, and my feelings - as it was meant to, and made me go look at my posted pics again. As the title of this post notes "I Can't Help it if I'm Not Perfect." I could say a bunch of really stupid things now, but I feel you all can respond and let me know what you think. By the way for those of you that do not know... I am 5'9", a loose size 6, 20% body fat, work out 3 times (at least) per week, naturally blond (cough), pretty, earn over $75k a year, have had 4 fabulous children - one of which is a sophmore in college. I get hit on by more men in their 20's than I did when I was in my 20's, have a totally hot boyfriend that is 5 years younger than me and who most people think is older than me, and I am almost FORTY fucking years old. Oh and I still get carded. Can you say the same? Most can't at my age. Do I sound defensive? You betcha!

So call me names and my response will be the same as before "
Ummm... I am not getting involved in stupid stuff like this. What are you 12?"

APOLOGY
I received an apology last night from the person in question. Granted it was sent through another person but it was still an apology and I accepted it. Why? Because it makes me feel better to get it totally out of my head and out into the universe as energy released. She obviously read this and felt some remorse. Good. It is always good when we learn from our mistakes as well as our total train wrecks. So youare forgiven privately and publicly.

Here is what I said: "I accept your apology - thank you." And left it at that. Nothing more, Nothing less.

The response to my apology (knew there would be one but this is nice): "Cool, thanks.  I really never meant to hurt your feelings.  I was so completely out of line."

I know it was right for me to accept the apology, but what are your feelings?