I have been lame on updating the last week but have been busy busy! It happens.

Today is one of my favorite holidays of the year and we are going to have some fun tonight with the kiddos. Maddi will not be here - she is with her dad at the lake so that takes a little of the magic out of it for me, but J's girls and CJ will be with me. Will tell you how it went tomorrow.

This past Sunday we picked up J's bird from a friend that had been watching him since spring. We just had never had time to go get him. J really missed the little guy and he is now my constant companion. In fact he is on my shoulder right now! His name is Sparky and he is a Sun Conure. Conures can be a little aggressive but this little guy is very loving as you will or have seen in the pics below. However, he does not like kids much and prefers to be with J and myself only... for now... During his time away he picked a few choice words that we are ignoring and also bawks like a chicken. The people he was with had a bunch of them.

The first night he was here J was at the farm working on my Jeep...again... and Sparky did not want to come out of his cage. He guarded it viciously and I finally realized I was antagonizing him purely for my own benefit. I wanted to play with him. So I laid on the floor next to his cage with the door open. The cage was also resting on the floor. And I waited. And waited. He would come to the opening and peek out only to scurry back to the safety of a perch if I spoke words of encouragement and squawk at me as if saying "Just shut up! I am working up to it just give me awhile damn it!!!" I am sure the neighbors heard him telling me off too.

So I acted like I was ignoring him from that point on and watched TV. He was in my peripheral vision and I think he knew it but was ok with that much. After about 2 hours he finally poked his head out and swung his body to the outside of the cage, froze, and looked at me to see if I was going to notice. I had - peripherally of course. Slowy he moved down the side of the cage until he was near the carpet. He tested the carpet with his beak, found it stable and climbed onto the floor (he hates the floor by the way - this was a huge surprise to me). Cautiously he waddled my way and I still pretended not to notice, not moving at all.

Victory! Sparky stopped next to me and tasted and tested me and my stability and the climbed up my side, up my chest, and looked me in the eye and communicated loud and clear "It's ok now, I have decided to be your friend again." I put my hand on his back and he moved like a cat under it closing his eyes as the pleasure of a good rub down overcame any fears he may have had left. And there he stayed until I sat up. Still content he scurried up my shirt onto my shoulder and into my hair. This is where he prefers to be and I love it. He runs his beak along my hair and it is so relaxing. Occasionally he will give me kisses on my cheek or mouth and push his tiny head under my chin as if caressing us both. I think I can learn to live with him.

He does like to stick his head in your mouth and peck and clean teeth - just like the dentist only much cheaper. Video on that to follow.

Last night was soooo much fun. J asked if he could take some pictures of me in my Halloween costume. Sounded like fun to me. While I got dressed and did my hair, he set up the tripod and got both of our digital cameras out. As soon as I had the fishnet stockings on he threw me on the bed to investigate, up close and personal, the size of the holes in his, ahem, playground area. He felt it important to do this with his tongue. I felt so slutty and wild and knew the night was going to be fun with a capital SEX. LOL. I had no idea just how fun and plan on investing in many costumes very soon.

After Halloween sales - HERE I COME!

So after the "investigation" was over J started taking pics. I fell into the mood immediately and we got some really great shots. Most I can not show you - - but a few at the end of the post are available for your viewing pleasure.

I had so much fun while he was taking the pictures. And I could tell he was getting all worked up in the process. After we were done taking pics we got on the bed to look at all of them. I started removing pieces of the costume with a very eager audience watching. Off came the skirt. Off came the jacket, Off came the tiny push up bra thing under the jacket, Off came the boots - As I was peeling the fishnets off my body I said "Perhaps one night soon I will leave the boots on." His response "I already have plans for that." Right on...

J got up and made sure the house was locked up for the night which actually means he was out sneaking one last cigarette before coming back to bed. I turned on some Enya which always stimulates our sex drive and connects us on some deep spiritual level. If you have never made love with Enya music playing in the background do it. Soon.  When he returned he undressed slowly making me crazy. His physique is nothing short of fucking awesome and watching him strip for me was a huge turn on.

He turned to me and pulled me into his arms and kissed me. Then he disappeared under the blankets and made my world start fading as wave upon wave of pure pleasure washed through me with his expertise and touch. I will let your imaginations go crazy here but suffice it to say as I fell over the edge of desperation into ecstasy I am pretty sure all the neighbors knew it. Then the fun really began. He moved up my body and as his body joined mine we floated on sensation and the music playing in the background. Our bodies moved in rhythm to the ethereal strains of music. For so long it was like a dance.

The world disappeared and we were left floating, our bodies, hearts, souls, minds merged into one. I could feel his emotions surging to the surface and could actually hear him trying to tell me...something. Wanting to tell me... everything. Each breath that left his body had a word, a whisper trying to take hold in my consciousness.  But I have waited so long I dared not hope. He pushed my head to the side so my ear was close to his mouth. And in my heart all I heard were breathy love words. I asked him "Say it, please say it," and he was, as best he could, even though the sounds were whisper quiet they were there. "I love you," I whispered in his ear and then my body released everything, gave everything as I clung ever tighter to him feeling my world shatter into a billion pieces of color and emotions so strong I did not, could not, breathe.

He was right there with me and this time we were fused as our bodies crescendoed in mutual harmony and bliss, his words a tangible thing in the air. Did he say them out loud? No. They were very vague whispers but so much more then he ever gave me before because they were real and they were between us. We drifted for awhile - neither talking. After a short while it began again and this time reckless passion, lust, a hunger for each other took over and our bodies moved together for near an hour. My body gave and gave and gave until I thought I would die from the pleasure of it, the almost pain of it. When it was over I knew happiness and total exhaustion. I am not sure we had ever given each other what we did last night, actually early this morning. He tired to arouse me again a bit later and I was surprised, but to weak and tired.

This morning I made him breakfast and took it to him and was rewarded with another round of loving. This time I was in control and road him til he screamed out. I will not be walking right for several days and told him no sex til Friday so I can recover. We looked at each other and laughed over that statement - knowing that would NEVER happen.

Today I am happy and content and feel very much loved. Enjoy the pictures.

Yesterday I had around 455 ++ picture views to the pics Andy took which then lead people to look at my other pictures. This was very cool and kind of a compliment. I also received several very nice messages. The comment attached to this picture was.. ok ... someones opinion, but I did not appreciate it.

If I knew the pics would get this much attention I would have charged admission... Which is making me think of something else I will share later...

What do you guys think?

Only bad part of the weekend was on Friday. While J and I scrambled around with last minute details for a last minute Birthday party for his now 10 year old daughter my youngest hurt herself. Guests were due to arrive at 5pm and Maddi hurt her foot at 4:45. So it was off to the emergency room for me! She screamed bloody murder all the way there. I thought surely she had broken her foot. She did not thank God, but she had removed several layers of flesh from the right side of her right foot when she fell off a bike and got her foot caught in the spokes. Thank god she had shoes on even if they were only crocs. Shoe was destroyed but saved her toes from being mangled.

 was pretty freaked out. Ann came to the hospital which helped calm me
down. And then my ex hubby' son showed up cause he thought I was alone.
Very sweet! He made Maddi feel better too. Nice distraction.

By the time we got home most of the guests had left - I missed all the excitement. Figures...

Saturday
we went to the American Royal BBQ with the kids. I had to carry Maddi a
lot of the time because in all our brilliance we forgot a stroller. She
did walk some but her foot was pretty stiff and I knew it hurt.
However, when she saw the blow up jumpy things (like a moon walk) she
was suddenly healed and jumped and jumped. lol. Little drama queen. J's
kids had an great time too. We lost J a few times but he tends to
wander off and do his own thing. So we did our own thing and had some
fun.

American Royal Building

The tallman really had the kids going. They all ended up in that lasso together.

Yesterday
we went to the farm and took the kids 4-wheeling in the mud and rain.
Way fun! They had a blast. We were all over that 80 acres. Maddi and CJ
love it out there - heck we all do. It is his dads farm but J runs his
business out of it so we go out there while we works sometimes.
Yesterday he played with us.

Last evening my ex hubby's kids came over with their new puppy. She is soooo cute. Ann will love these pics!

Maddi and her Big Brother and the new puppy

Last
night when J got home (he had to go work for a few hours in the
evening) he climbed into bed with me and held me very tight. He seemed
rather emotional and I swear he was trying not to cry. He would not
open up to what ever it was that was bugging him but did tell me how
important I am to him and how much he loves this or that about me. He
held me so tight and curled around my body. His head was on my side and
I rubbed his head relaxing him. He moved and looked at me. Just looked
and his eyes were so gentle and full of emotion. When I asked what was
wrong he shrugged it off. But he did say something startling. "I love
so many things about you."

I will leave it at that. More progress.

We had such a freaking blast! Started out meeting Andy at his hotel and having breakfast. Then I ran home and got ready for pic's. The only reason I was not ready then was I had to drop J off at his farm so I could have my Jeep. His freaking monster truck is broke down. OH BTW - My Jeep has been repaired. Looks almost good as new.

Anyhow, I got myself all beautimus and went back to the hotel. Hopped in Andy's truck and we drove down the road a bit to Shawnee Mission Park. I have taken many pics out there - some you have seen on my old site as backgrounds for my site. Pretty lake, trees, all wide open spaces. First off we found park patrol and he warned them we would be having a photo shoot on a WWII Jeep. The guy was cool. 2nd we found a large parking lot and Andy unloaded the Jeep. So very cool! 3rd we went for a Jeep ride around the park. That was awesome!

When we got back it was time for the first wardrobe change. I changed in the trailer and NO ONE could see me changing. Andy was a perfect gentleman all day. If he peeked I totally missed it. After I changed we started taking pictures. It was around noon. We finished taking pictures at 3:30. We had a blast!!! Went to several different spots for pictures and made the most of the scenery. Changed into lots of different military jackets. Some looked better than others. My new profile pic is obviously one of them and I will post more over the next few days. Thanks Andy - I had one of the best days ever!

Later in the evening J, me and the kids met him at a local restaurant along with wanttounderstand, a_watchful_eye, Stikman708, and fratmom. We had a blast. Andy gave everyone - even the kids - a jeep ride. Dinner was fun - a good time had by all. I love Xanga get togethers!